I have been learning as of late how much easier it is for me to give love than to receive it. There is no risk in being the lover because it is always on your terms. It is in letting yourself be loved that you become vulnerable and to be honest being vulnerable isn’t something that comes easily for me. It hasn’t gone so well for me in the past, and looking at it in a risk/reward kind of way if I were to be a pragmatist it wasn’t really worth it. But I know that was a rarity, and that I will never find what I want if I am not willing to take a lot of risks, like letting myself be loved.
I’m making some progress from those closest to home as you can see: